A mes amis...

Misunderstandings are like cancer. They slowly eat away at your relationships, till one day you realise that there is nothing left to save. I have seen many a relationship fall prey to them , and do not want any of mine to suffer the same fate. So I am using my beloved blog to write what I feel about all the people who matter to me, so that the know what they mean to me, and exactly where they stand in my life. Some of those mentioned below may not read my blog, but I still want to share what I feel about them, perhaps just to clear the cobwebs in my heart. And my head. So here goes:

Girish - Gilli you are the sweetest person I 've ever had the fortune of knowing.I love spending time with you, our moments together are so much fun that I can't help but feel that way. Also, you are the only person I've known who shares the same passion for ShahRukh Khan as I do(hehe). I'm probably blinded by all your smooth-talk, but I think you are perfect, just the way you are. Don't ever change. For anyone.

Akshy - Baby, I think you are one of the most amazing people I've met. You've been through so much and still emerged a winner. Yes, I think you are a winner. And that you have a lot of great things in store for you. I know there are times when you find that hard to believe, but you know now that you just have to read this to be reminded that it is true. You are like a sister to me, we are so similar, its creepy, hehe. Love you.

Rishi - Rish, I just have one question - Why are you so guarded? Are you afraid of letting people get too close? Why? I never know where I stand with you, though I know that you are one of the few people I can trust with my life, blindly (unless marks are involved, of course :P). Don't ask me how, I just know. You are a complicated person, and I'm sure you have your reasons, but let me assure you that your life will become much simpler once you start confiding in people.

I'm also using this space to tell you that though we enjoy doing it tremendously, we are sorry we bully you so much in college- its just that its fun, because you give it all back to us (hehe). On a serious note though, I've seen changes in you from the day we've met, and I've grown to respect the person you've become. I'm not sure you know it, but I'm very fond of you and increasingly so as days go by. Don't let anyone imply anything otherwise.

Ayesha - What can I possibly say about my "better half" that I haven't said already? The first time I met you I thought you were a snobbish Jhavierite(haha). But knowing you has changed everything (snob - isnt that what comes out of your nose when you have a cold?). You n I are fundamentally as similar to each other as chalk and cheese, but i think what we both share, and what keeps us together, is our ability to find a joke in every situation, and our unlimited enthusiasm about everything we do. Not to mention all the crazyness we are known for;)
I want you to know that I love the way you live your life; I wish I had your secure, level-headed brain:) Keep rockin' babe!

Tulsi - Red Bull gives you WIII-NNGGS! haha! I always thought I was the biggest kid I know, but you surpass me by leaps and bounds;) The more time I spend with you, the more I realise that I know very little about your life before BMM. So please, give me all the nitty-gritties next time! Jokes apart, I want you to know that I admire you very much, not only because of the way you have handled your by default pseudo celebrityhood (I know you hate it) and the byproducts that came with it, but also because of your many talents. The only thing that has ever bothered me is your attitude towards you-know-what. I'm not asking you to change it, I'm sure you have your reasons, but I don't want it to drive wedges between the rest of us. I want you to never bring it up when the NBS is around. Ever.
To negate the gloomy effects of that sermon, I will end this monologue with a few happy words - I Love You baby! Hope we stay friends forever and ever, and that you n I get married on the same day! hehe!

Raddy - Raddy! Political Science genius and stoned for life! haha! Your way of looking at all things differently makes all the difference, really. Everything gets proper perspective when you are around. Everything seems simpler. M I making sense here? You are the anchor that keeps the MBS ship afloat. You are the person I'd run to if I ever needed sane advice. You are the one responsible for 60% of NBS fun. You are RaddyGod.I could ramble on, but I think I should end here. I love you!!! mwah!

Arjun - What I write about you may seem straight out of a novel, but as corny as it might sound, it is all true, I can't help it. I have been in love with you for the last three years, and our break-up and all the subsequent events have done nothing to change that. I have sub-conciously been looking for you in every guy I've dated, and hence have been terribly unsuccessful in sustaining relationships. Although the intensity of what I felt for you is not the same anymore, I still cannot say that I'm completely over you.I know I've hurt you a lot, and if I could I'd take it all back, but I can't. I sometimes get the feeling that I'm dwelling in the past, that we will never get back what we had, but for some stupid reason I still hope. But there is a part of me that also hopes, that someday soon maybe, I will accept that we will never be the same, and move on. *sigh* Its complicated:) But I know one thing for sure, I love you*grins shamelessly*

Rohit - I have nothing to say to you. Which is sad really. I didn't want our relationship to end like your previous ones, where you fell in love with a girl who was one of your closest friends, botched up the relationship and then botched up the friendship. But I can see now that there is a pattern here. Radhika, Rucha and now me. You are the kind of person who woos the girl when he cannot have her, and then when he has her, he doesn't know what to do with her. Really Rohit, I loved you, and I tried to make us work. With some effort from you it might actually have. Now I'm trying hard to not let our friendship suffer. But yet again, there are no efforts from your side. A person can do only so much, and I have given up. I treasure whatever good memories we have had, but I 'm willing to move on, and sadly for you, it seems to be very easy.

Radhi - I'm gonna cry the day you leave for the States, I really am. I dunno what I'll do without you around to solve all my problems for me. No one has understood every little emotion I've felt like you have, perhaps because you've felt so many of them yourself. You've been there for me everytime I've needed a friend, whether it was to share a laugh or a tear. You've never failed me. And for that I'm grateful. I will miss you, but I also wish all the good things in life for you.You probably don't know it, but you are an extremely strong and resilient girl, and I know you will succeed in everything you do. Love you.

Mitali - There is nothing that I can probably put down in words here that will encompass the sheer magnitude of the number of years we have spent together. You are my bestest (if that is a word) and oldest friend, someone who knows me inside out, who can predict what I'm thinking or what I'll do, or won't do, and then some. You are like my lost twin - we wear the same clothes, share the same thoughts, and even like the same boys! And yet there is an important part of my life that you aren't privy to. Maybe someday, when I'm able to laugh it off, I'll sit down and tell you. But till then you've to respect my decision and not ask me anything. I need time. All I want to say right now is that I love you, and that no matter how far we are from each other, we will always remain friends, forever.

A person I'd not like to name - You have no idea what being unable to talk to you is doing to me. I miss you, I'm plagued by thoughts of you and I don't know how to handle them. I know what I'm doing is right, but it is really really hard. I've kept all my feelings for you locked up in this little corner of my heart and am determined to not them resurface. At the same time I wish you could still be a part of my life. There was a time when I ran to you with all the good news I had, shared all my misgivings with you and seeked and valued your advice. Now, everything has changed, and I hate it.
I hope you will forgive and forget, and let us start all over. If nothing, then as friends.