Bit stupid really...

I hate it that I'm able to forgive and forget so easily.... Its probably my perpetual fear of confontrations, but still. There is no reason why I shouldn't get up once and say, "Hey, I think you are an asshole" and feel better about it. I also hate myself for bursting into tears every time I'm forced to confront someone about something, and especially if that someone yells at me. Extreme negative emotions make me wanna cry, like rage or devastation or shame or terror. Loneliness makes me cry the most, but I don't do it because there is no use crying if there is no one there to comfort you. Ok so I'm straying a little. Getting back to the original topic, I swear one of these days I'm just gonna forget about all my inhibitions and stay mad at a person for more than a day.... And all those who mess with me better watch out!






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