Apologies suck.

It's funny that just when you think that things can't get any worse, life finds a way to scream, "HA HA HA HA, I FOOLED JU!" in you face.

"There's rockbottom

fifty feet of crap

then me"

I hate apologies. People can't just say sorry and expect everything to go back to normal. It doesn't work that way.

"I'm sorry"
Sure you are. You're sorry that you're a goat-fuckin poop eater. I'm sorry that you're a goat-fuckin poop eater too. But being sorry doesn't change that. It just makes you a repentant goat-fuckin poop eater. Which is only worse, come to think of it.

"I will never make this mistake again."
Right. That makes it all go away. What do I care if you don't ever do it again? In fact, I say you should do it again. To someone else. Why should I be the only one who suffers? Eh?

"I know you are hurt."
Score, Einstein.

"I hope we can be friends again."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I must give it to you this time dude. You are funny. Painfully so.

And finally the mother of all statements:

"I don't want to lose you."
How can you lose me? You lose only what was yours in the first place. I wasn't and now, thanks to you, I will never be.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

SHIT IS EXPLODING SHIT IS EXPLODING SHIT IS EXPLODING

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

blahblahabaalahalaablhlablhlhlhlhlhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

STOP THIS MUSIC, AYE!









*sigh*
I hate myself.

I love drunk Rishi!!! Rather...Drunk Rishi loves me (hehehehe)

2/4/2006		12:12:07 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				i'm just too bloody sloshedddd
2/4/2006		12:12:09		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				since u r drunk
2/4/2006		12:12:19 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				lets try bein cordal n friendly with each other
2/4/2006		12:12:26 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				since u r drunk
2/4/2006		12:12:29 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				it shud b fun
2/4/2006		12:12:33 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				since when's that a prob;)
2/4/2006		12:12:38 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				i've never had a prob with you
2/4/2006		12:12:40 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				honestly
2/4/2006		12:12:50 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				ure a nice gal
2/4/2006		12:13:03 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				and you're cool to be with....
2/4/2006		12:13:08 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				so chill
2/4/2006		12:13:11 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				i don't hate you
2/4/2006		12:13:13 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				no
2/4/2006		12:13:15 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				honest;y
2/4/2006		12:13:16 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				not like tht
2/4/2006		12:13:28 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				*honesytly
2/4/2006		12:13:32 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				**honesty
2/4/2006		12:13:37 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				*honestly!
2/4/2006		12:13:37 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				aww rishi
2/4/2006		12:13:40 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				thank u
2/4/2006		12:13:44 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				really
2/4/2006		12:13:45 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				u kno
2/4/2006		12:13:51 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				u really piss me off sometimes
2/4/2006		12:13:54 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				but then sometimes
2/4/2006		12:13:58 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				u do the sweetest things
2/4/2006		12:14:00 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				you just make me blooody envious...you know how to enjoy life
2/4/2006		12:14:02 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				i dunno wat 2 make of u
2/4/2006		12:14:10 AM		mEdU$aaH - Life's Good :-)				wow
2/4/2006		12:14:34 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				yeah...if there's one gal i know who's actually living and not existing,its you...
2/4/2006		12:15:24 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				now i go...i've an early morning...goodnight....
2/4/2006		12:15:29 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				*hic!*
2/4/2006		12:15:33 AM		.h3lios|satin PJs				tequila is good!

Kahan kisike liye hain mumkin
sabke liye ik sa hona
Mera dil toh
thoda bura hain
thoda bhala hain
seene main

Life's Good

Its been a while.

Nothing much has changed since the last post. And yet, everything seems a little different. Or maybe it's just the way I'm looking at things.

My first month of the new year has been lovely - I've made new friends, had new experiences, learnt new things and above all, forgotten the old the buried the past.

It's a new lovely indescribable feeling. I'm proud to say that I've changed, and hopefully for the better. I've accepted the good and the evil within me, and I'm tryin to deal with them both (though being evil is deliciously appealing ;-)

Life is hectic and little tough on the back, (hehe) but life is good.
And I will make sure it goddamn stays that way.

Meanwhile, here are a few honourable mentions:
Vahishta - For being so cool :)
Pranab - For being such a wierdo (hehehehe) I don't feel alone nemore.
Atharva - For being so absolutely clueless about what I'm feeling n yet tryin to help. The mark of true friendship, I say.
Eeshan - For all the lonnnnnnnng conversations. I loved every word! Come back to India, idiot!
Mitali - For all the great times we had together. Girl power rules!